Mia 72nd Day 03-13

by Administrator 13. March 2011 03:10

Mia couldn’t fall asleep…maybe they were a little too loud but most likely, the occurring image of her patient was making her wide awake. She tossed and turned for about an hour, then decided to get dressed and go outside. The wind was picking up and waves were getting bigger but it was very pleasant at the beach. Mia sat down close to the water, took a deep breath in …she loved the smell of the ocean…unmistakably salty…  The water looked very dark and mysterious. She noticed her brother’s guest playing at the beach, chasing and splashing each other. They looked happy and innocent …like kids… The feeling of guilt was overwhelming…she almost felt nauseous…Mia could hear the same conversation over and over again…Maybe if she wouldn’t talk to her that day …or at all… She knew it was silly; patient has a right to know…

Her name was Margaret…Mia will always remember her expression…full of surprise and hurt…A lot of patients react that way…eventually coming to the term with the reality…she didn’t’.   They found her following day …she wrote the letter explaining everything….. Didn’t want to fight for her life or worry anymore… decided to take a matter in her own hands… The fact that she had a history of depression…was not making it easier for Mia… Margaret left the letter addressed to Mia…she was not blaming her for anything…only saying the last goodbye and thanking her for a good care…Mia always knew …one day it may happen but pushed that thought away …secretly hoping it never will… She always dreamed of becoming a doctor, wanted to help people, make them better…never imagined losing a patient in this way…. First she was holding on quite good…she was able to work …but in a short while…the headaches started getting worse and she was not able to concentrate. Mia realized she is jeopardizing the safety of her patients and asked for the vacation…after two weeks it became obvious…she was not ready to return and begin to question if she ever will be …the stress and responsibility for someone’s else life overwhelmed her...Headaches were not going away too…

The people from Adam’s party decided to swim… girl about twenty had too much to drink…she couldn’t even walk a straight line… “Maybe I should talk to them” Mia though…She got up and moved toward their direction…”Hey guys…the waves are getting bigger…don’t go too far..Just stay at the beach” she warned them. “Come and join us” they invited her “No, thank you…not today…please be careful” she asked in a concern voice. They were not far away…  “We are all right…don’t worry” they shouted back ….. Mia decided to walk back home and have a talk with her brother…she was half way through when she heard someone screaming…The young girl was calling her friend and trying to find him in the dark water…” Michael…Michael…where are you…stop kidding around!! Michael …it’s a stupid joke…” she shouted. Mia turned back and looked at the house…hoping someone else will hear that…she was not the best swimmer... No one was coming…The girl noticed her and started calling for help “ please help me…he is lost…help!!”  Mia started running toward the water, feeling her heart beating faster….she was splashing through the waves ...looking around …she didn’t see anyone …jumped in, trying to find the man….again…nothing…came up for a breath …looked around and dived in again…this time to the left…She could hear desperate calls from the girl… Came up again …and saw…someone else standing next to the girl…They were pushing each other, screaming and fighting… she run toward them…” You are such a jerk…it’s a stupid joke…do you know how much you scared me…!” the girl exclaimed. The man was laughing …” It was just a joke...” he said… The girl was pushing him…Mia looked at both of them…Trembling from cold and being scared…” Are you Michael?” she asked “Yes “he answered “Sorry about it …it was really stupid joke…didn’t mean to scare you...” Mia felt as if she is going to faint…felt nauseous again…Turned around and started to walk toward the house. Her clothes drenched in water, tightly stuck to her body ….she walked into the house…shaking…Adam noticed her and exclaimed with a horror in his voice….” Are you all right…what is wrong…what happened...is everyone ok ??” Mia passed him, heading for her room…” Yes I am fine ...so is everybody else…please get you friends off the beach… they are dangerous to themselves…..” she said, accentuating every word and walked off.

She was standing under the shower with running water and the steam slowly covering all mirrors…  She started crying… the incident  scared her…but that was not the only reason…she was crying about everything that happen in the last month…losing a patient...not being able to work and feeling out of control…She needed to get it out ….slowly begin to calm down… Mia stepped out of the shower, grabbed a clean towel and wiped the steam off the mirror…She was looking at the sad face with the dark circles under her eyes…almost didn’t recognized herself… her hazel eyes were swollen from crying and her dark brown hair pulled away from the face… “You have to get a grip on yourself” she exclaimed looking at her reflection in the mirror…  She heard knocking on the door...” Just a minute” she answered.  Put on the robe and said “Come in”. It was Adam…wanted to apologize for what has happened….” It’s all right…I told you…not your fault…just got upset a little...” she explained… Adam left and it looked, as if the party was nearing the end… with voices getting quieter with every minute.

Mia closed her eyes and started drifting to sleep…the evening at the beach turned out to be more demanding that she bargain for. She was almost asleep, when she felt someone waking her up… opened her eyes…It was Adam….” Mia …we need your help…something is wrong with Paul…I don’t think he is breathing… you are the  doctor… please, help him…”  For a moment Mia wasn’t sure, if she was still dreaming …but then, in the split of a second, she was up and running toward the other room…” Not again…she thought…I hope it’s not a…” Paul was lying on the couch with people surrounding him and shouting …trying to wake him up… “Step away” Mia demanded.  He was not breathing…” Call 911”  she shouted and started performing CPR…. The whole room around her disappeared as she struggled to resuscitate him… His life depended on her…she needed to save him….still no breathing…..please….again….Mia was working  as  if her own life would be in danger….   She checked again…he was breathing…she heard the siren of the ambulance and heard herself saying…” Go outside ...let them know we are here...” The paramedics arrived and she explained what happened…they had him stabilized and in the car in the matter of minutes… “ Doctor are you coming with us?” they asked. Mia paused for a moment…”Yes…I will follow you...” she said slowly…

As she was driving toward hospital, following the ambulance ….she felt alive for the first time in last few weeks… “I think he is going to be all right” she sighted.

She was driving through the darkness of the night….unexpectedly awaken…realizing that’s part of the life….all little failures, mistakes, rescues and happy ending…You can’t exclude one from another…and you can’t never predict which one will happen next…That’s the beauty of life and tragedy at the same time. You can’t save anyone …standing on the sidelines….That’s not why, she decided to become a doctor…. As she was walking to the hospital…she smiled and realized she missed her job…and that she learned one valuable lesson…to be willing to help someone we need to do it despite…not only because…That’s what she chose and no one ever said it will be easy…just rewarding…from time to time… She just has to do everything in her power to make more happy endings…that’s the key…

 

 

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"People where you live," the little prince said, "grow five thousand roses in one garden... yet they don't find what they're looking for..."

"They don't find it," I answered.

"And yet what they're looking for could be found in a single rose, or a little water..."

"Of course," I answered.

And the little prince added, "But eyes are blind. You have to look with the heart."

 

 

 

 

 

 

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