The Beginning 137th Day 05-17

by Administrator 17. May 2011 03:21

Alice couldn’t sleep all night long…she was tossing and turning, reliving the scene with the boy and his mother… She wished, she could have done something else…to stop this woman. She was always the first one to stand up for the “underdog” or someone weaker…but that was different. Alice was surprised by the intensity of her emotions….it felt very personal. In the morning she called the CPS and reported the incidence, giving all information. Hoping it’s not too late…she could never forgive herself if anything bad would happen to this boy… The phone rang, pulling her away from her thoughts…

“Hello” Alice answered it.  Listening to someone and nodding her head…

“Not a problem, I will be there early…see you in a bit...Bye…” she finished and hung up the phone.

Alice quickly dressed and got ready for work. She left the apartment, walking to her car in a long strides …trying to hurry up. She didn’t see him, concentrating on her thoughts…when suddenly, she heard her name.

“Alice…Alice..?”  She stopped and looked up…there he was…Standing with a large bouquet of red roses and a smile on his face.

“I was looking for you…you disappeared…without a word...” Jake’s face took on a worried look. Alice knew the “drill” …He will apologize…try to behave himself…no alcohol, jealousy or manipulation   …for a day or two….maybe a week …and then …it will happen again… She couldn’t trust him anymore or believe in  the change….Some people will never change…it was a sad conclusion she arrived at. Alice couldn’t do it to herself anymore….she wanted to help…but he was the one who had to make it happen…

“These are for you” he extended his hand with bouquet of roses, trying to give it to her.

“No …I don’t want flowers. I have not disappeared…I left you …after …your attack…Can’t do it anymore…we were finished for some time…” she said, giving him decisive look.

“It will never happen again…I am sorry …I promise you …never…give me one more chance…I love you …so much...” Jake spoke with a pleading tone of the  voice…

 Alice watched his face…he looked innocent, full of regrets….and promises…She knew he can’t keep his word…it’s been too many times…As she watched him…she realized …life is not a simple game of likes and dislikes… Many times….you still care for somebody…but you need to put your feelings aside…and leave…How strange it was to care for him after all, that he had done…Is it because she didn’t want to face the fact, he  was not going to change or because… it was difficult to leave  someone and just take away all the memories and feelings… ...??  People and their emotions….can’t live without them and sometime can’t leave because of them….

“Goodbye Jake…Please don’t try to contact me…We are finished…” Alice spoke calmly ...feeling …as the weight has been lifted…

“No…I will never drink …or …” Jake started to talk…interrupted by Alice’s short “No…No!! And No!!!”

He looked surprised…Alice walked to her car, started the engine and without looking into his direction drove off. He was standing there for a moment…and then with one movement put the roses to the trash and exclaimed… ”Shit...!”

Alice was driving toward the coffee shop …feeling her eyes watering with tears …she blinked few times, releasing them into her cheeks…They formed little streams …following the gravity… and shape of her face. As she began to cry…she realized …that was the closing she was waiting for…The feeling of freedom and new beginning was becoming stronger at every passing moment. Alice knew without a doubt …it was a right decision…

She walked to the coffee shop, immediately heading toward the back…to change and start her shift.

Margaret gave her a surprised look…” I see… you are doing well today…?”

Alice stopped, and then looked far away ahead of her…as if seeing a distant horizon “Actually, very well… It’s a new day…and I just…. woke up…” She said, letting her face to relax into an easy, natural grin.

“Thank you Margaret…for everything...” she exclaimed and opened the door to the back…

 

To be continued…

 

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The Little Prince

"People where you live," the little prince said, "grow five thousand roses in one garden... yet they don't find what they're looking for..."

"They don't find it," I answered.

"And yet what they're looking for could be found in a single rose, or a little water..."

"Of course," I answered.

And the little prince added, "But eyes are blind. You have to look with the heart."

 

 

 

 

 

 

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